Fifteen months and fifteen days ago my life ended. Or, I thought it had. The woman I loved, Lorena Alcala, died of leukemia. It was only then that […]
No Way Back To Eden
n It has been a year since Lorena, my love, my partner, my hopes and my dreams, died. It seems like yesterday and an eternity. I have grieved. […]
Merry Christmas From The “Greatest Nation”
I will keep this short. nnI had planned to spend Christmas with my one true love, Lorena.nnDeath intervened. It has been six months now. nnLorena died too young […]
I Love Her…
I have been married twice. My first marriage lasted 20 years and my second 25. And, on reflection, I am ashamed to admit that while I was fond […]
Is Life Worth Living Without You?
A question I have often asked since Lorena died. And I arrive at different answers depending on the day, the hour, even the minute. On those days I […]
So, What Was So Special About Her?
I’ve written a lot, perhaps too much, about the grief that has devastated me since the death of my love, Lorena. This will be the last on this […]
With No Place To Go
It’s strange to wake up alone. Even stranger to wake up alone in a big house with only my two dogs, Milo and Kira, sleeping soundly on their […]
Lesson From A Love Lost
If you read this blog regularly, you may be tired of hearing about my grief. I am tired of living it. The waves of pain and overwhelming sadness […]
I Will Never Say “Goodbye”
“Life changes in an instant. The ordinary instant.” – Joan Didion I talk to my deceased lover, Lorena, everyday. Usually as I look at a photo of her […]
I Can’t Remember My Last Words
I lost the woman I loved one month ago today and I can’t remember my last words to her while she was still conscious. I believe they were, […]